Sunday, January 24, 2010

25 Years

As my hands grow older
So do the stars
But they’ve been here for millions of years
Searching for their counterparts

And I’ve only walked this earth
25 rotations around the sun
25 more and I’ll be gone
Leaving behind a revolution

As my hair grows longer
So do the days
With summer approaching and the marigolds soaking
In the sun we’ve all learned to praise

And I’ve only braced that light
25 terms in my life
25 more and I’ll be gone
Leaving a trail of gratitude behind

As my feet grow colder
So does my heart
But it’s been aflame longer than proclaimed
So I’ll take all of what I part

And I’ve only lived with this heart
25 winter courses
25 more and I’ll be gone
Leaving this earth with no remorse

Yes I will leave this earth with no remorse.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Change please?...

I've just recently realized something that shocked me to no end. I've changed my perspective on life and quite honestly it's made me happier. Of course everyone gets down in the dumps every so often but I've been low for so long that I needed to change something. So within the past few months I've experienced a dramatic shift in consciousness. I've learned to appreciate what I have (completely), and I've taught myself to find happiness in moments that only call for sorrow. Someone very close to me told me that "Happiness exists in limited moments... you need to grasp it whenever it shows itself because it won't be there for long." And I have been. I've been doing things I've dreamed of doing but never thought I'd have the courage to do: taking trips, really getting to know new people, dating (who knew), writing a book, making music. All things that I love. I realize that life is too damn short to not experience it the way it's meant to be experienced. So let's just say, I'm happier knowing that I'm not wasting my time. I'm happier when I use that time to be with my family and friends. I'm happier knowing that I'm learning to love again, but this time with no reservations. I'm happier knowing that in life, it's not having what you want, it's wanting what you have. I'm also happier knowing that I'm learning this all at 25, rather than 60...